Not losing the HOPE in me changing .-

Today the talk with my psicologist made me think in a lot of stuffs , like the fact that I have to stop using as an excuse somthing that occured like ten years ago to hide the fact that I keep hitting myself trought the wall & that I can't move forward. I GET STUCK IN THE SAME PLACE ! , and I don't really like that , I know that I can be much more than what I am right now ! but it seems easier to excuse myself all the time & don't do anything about it. I hope that with soome time & having a better understanding of how to speak , or how to do the things so that I can move forward , makes me happier than today .-